16 weeks.....

Yesterday, Olivia turned 16 weeks old. This was another hard bump to overcome in my grief journey. When Ellie passed away at 16 weeks old exactly, I was terrified the same would happen to her sister. Even though I know anything could happen at anytime in life, I have so much faith that God will keep Olivia here with her mommy and daddy with her big sister always watching over her. 

The days leading up to these "bumps" that give me so much fear and anxiety. They're the worst. I cried just hoping and praying that those days wouldn't be the last with my baby. I can't help but fear and think these horrible thoughts from what I have been through. But, having a strong faith is what gets me through. I know that I will be able to experience everything this earth has to offer with Olivia. God is going to provide Marc and I with the strength and guidance in raising Olivia in a life where she can follow God. 

Today is a new day. I now will get the chance to parent past 16 weeks old. I know I WILL get to see Livvy eat foods, crawl, walk, go to the beach, go to school, make friends, get her license, graduate from high school and college, get her first job, get married, have kids and everything else God has planned for her here with us. I cannot thank God enough for blessing us with her and putting so much love back into our hearts. I know Ellie worked with God and asked Him to send her little sister to us to help us love and smile again. I feel Ellie's presence everyday and feel so blessed with having two precious and beautiful girls. I am so thankful. ❤️