I was set to be induced at 6 am Thursday, August 16, 2012, so I had set my alarm for 4:15 so I could get up and shower and give ourselves enough time to go to the hospital. But our little stinker had a different plan in mind...she broke my water at 4 am that morning! I just knew right then and there that we would have our hands full with a little diva! She said, "I am doing this my way!" :) I love her for being so strong-willed so early in her life.
The day went pretty well...even better when I got the epidural! The time came to push at 4 pm, so I thought, this is it! My baby will be here shortly! But that was not the case...our little princess wanted to stay in mommy's belly a little longer so I had to push for 2 1/2 hours before our little stinker decided to make her screaming appearance :) Hearing her little scream was the best sound in the whole world! I took one look at her and was instantly in love with her. While they were cleaning her up, daddy went and talked to her and she calmed down instantly and looked around like "Hey, I know him!" It was so precious! Being able to hold her and spend some family time with Ellie and Marc (before the family came to meet her) was the most precious time together. We finally had our daughter here to join our little family. My heart was finally complete.
Nothing is better than being a mommy. I am so thankful that God has given Marc and I another little blessing to be able to have these special moments with too. Losing Ellie was the hardest thing that Marc and I will ever go through in life. Not that Olivia will be replacing Ellie in anyway, I just know she will bring us light and hope back into our life that has been lost for these past 8 months. I just pray for our strength as we approach her birthday this week without her.
We have decided to have a memorial "pretty in pink" birthday party with our family on Saturday to honor our little baby's 1st year. On Friday, Marc and I took the day off together to remember the day that we spent with Miss Ellie when she was born. We also decided to go to the zoo and take our princess her 1st birthday cake and balloons. Those are obviously things we did not picture for our baby's 1st birthday (because she is not here) but we are still trying to do things to honor and remember her. We know she will be with us and looking down on us celebrating her precious life.
We love you so much, Ellie Olivia. I miss you more than anything and wish I could hold you here in my arms and give you so many kisses. But, I will get to do that one day when God reunites us together.
See you in the morning, princess <3
Daddy talking to his pretty princess <3 This melts my heart.
Holding my baby girl for the first time <3 Best moment EVER!
She says, "I'm cold!" :)
Introducing our pretty princess on her birthday! She is just so gorgeous!
